Impatient

I don't even know where to begin. I feel trapped within myself. I am an adult now but still feel like some people want me to still be a child. I'll be 22 in 3 months. I am so ready to experience life. " my life " I can't wait to have my own place, own things, my own decisions, my own classroom, and be married. I am in love with my best friend of 3 years. I have many mistakes in the past- but I learned from them. His name is Jesse Bobo. It took me awhile to realize I was in love with him and can't live without him. He makes me very happy. I am so anxious to think this could be the man i marry. Except I don't know if he's as ready as I am to move in his place and be married. Home life isnt wonderful bc I don't like being around negativity and people arguing. So I spend alot of time with Jesse and his family. I wish for once something could be simple. At times I feel all alone in this big world. But I have parents and brothers and a wonderful boyfriend. But, life gets so boring. I feel like there's so much I need and can be doing but can't bc of money or time. Im ready to be done with school with a good teaching job. I just want something to happen and soon. I'm getting impatient.

Xoxo- SB